Gasoline

When the doctor was stitching my face, I prayed that he would stitch my heart too.

6,5,4,3,2,1

She fits firmly to the ocean.
I investigate our hate with numbers.
X's vibrate. Us? Retire. One evening.
Eat,  rarely eat.
Eternal

1,2,3

Don't Speak to me

It was 17 years ago when I forgot how to talk to god. The cord was snipped and everything went away. I forgot how to build up a conversation with Christ, and I was forced to learn English, I still cant spell correctly because this is my second language, so forgive me if I forget a comma. I try to speak to you but I just get choked up, words make no sense and I just know there is something more, I wont forget, I wont Forget, I wont forget.


Neptune

 I want to stare at the stars long enough that it is a blood moon every night. I want to hold hands with the sun. I want burns all over my body, but mostly I want Neptune. I want to be as cold as Neptune looks. and I want her to lay with me. Neptune. I know you weigh 17.5 times the mass of the earth but you are still so beautiful. you are colder then the earth has ever been but you have 14 moons. You have 5 rings, each one rolling onto my fingers, I want to touch you, take me with you, I've given you "Space" for far to long, I love you.


Failing, i'm dying catch me.

My lungs are going in and out but they are slowing down, kidneys failing and my hands haven't stopped shaking since 23. I know I am 17 but I am no longer talking about my age, every day the mountains get a little less green. I am going to Hawaii and I hope when I get back my glasses will be in. because the whole world is going grey now.

Real life, Less tight.

I was in war.
There were grenades and fire, everyone else was dead,
Just me and him.
I took one to the leg, he shot all of my friends,
his trigger pointed, he only has one bullet left but he is a legend he's never been beat he's not scared.
I slowly round the corner and I put one in the back of his head.
I learned in psychology that memories are in the hippo campus,
That must of been where i shot him because he doesn't remember anything.
He wont wake up, he is dead.
For a minute I thought I won.
I have never been more wrong.
I thought I was always right.
Never been more wrong.
Ya i'm still standing but at least he's not living with the memories of murder.
I didn't realize with that one shot i would be killing myself too.

I'm so sorry to anyone I've ever shot. you didn't deserve to die.
He said he believes I love everyone, so how could i shoot him.
I am sorry.
I am so sorry.
I thought i was just playing C.O.D. but it was real life.
I am so sorry.
Please forgive me.
I am so sorry.

I'm sorry I failed,
Please wake up
Please forgive me
Please take my gun,
Please shoot back.